Clearly clearly i see my heart’s desires

Clear blue water.

You know, I hate so much texts that are a waste of space and time, though I realise that my texts are exactly like that.

Today I spent, well…. Trying on clothes. I found so many unworn, torn and forgotten gems under my bed and in my wardrobe. So I fixed them. Painted my old, scruffy converses in bronze. And I’m ready to leave for Vilnius. I’m not saying Lithuania because it’s just not the same thing. I love Vilnius. This city will always be home. Most important city in my heart.

I mentioned fashion and Vilnius. I will explain. Last time I went there I felt completely left out. Everyone dresses in the most crazy and original styles. (By everyone I mean young people mostly.) And I was pretty much wearing jeans and tees during my stay. So this time hopefully I will be more ready to show off my style. Which I haven’t shown off for ages really. Actually last time I have really been myself in a sense of fashion is 3 years ago. This means I lost it when I moved to UK. Which is strange, since London is one of the capitals of fashion… I feel people here care less about their appearance (of course I don’t mean everyone). Also when I came here I had this urge to “fit in”. And it is the worst thing that can happen. It kills your personality!

So I’m leaving on Saturday. And I can’t wait. A month of hanging out with my girlfriends (hopefully), buying vintage dresses, swimming in the sea, day dreaming and enjoying the sunshine (that is hopefully as well). The only thing that tears me apart is not being able to see someone really close to my heart. Someone I am falling in love with.

Appearance matters

Appearance matters? Sadly it does. People care how other people look even more than they realise. I am quite judgemental about what other people wear. And today I realised that I need to sort out my own look.

It won’t be easy, because there is no theme in my clothes. You could easily say that they all belong to different people. What angers me the most is that I bought quite a lot stuff during past year. What was I thinking? Seriously. The only things I don’t regret getting is all the vintage dresses, because they just look amazing. Not on me though.

So I thought about it. What defines me? What are the keywords to define my personality? Water, freedom, gold, minimal, edgy, vintage, ballet, contrast, dream, light, shiny, silent, creamy.

What could I do with that now?

I guess this outfit from Reiss represents me quite well:

                   

I need some more clothes. Preferably very simple black, grey and white basics, since my wardrobe is a mess with no order right now. I also love these: